The Big Day

We have officially been married one week tonight. After spending two nights alone at The Boulder's we arrived back home to kids, a messy house, work, and real life. It didn't seem like anything really changed except now I get to say, "My husband ....." and he calls me his "wifey".

Saige, who has always been the loving and happiest child is having the hardest time adjusting to our marriage. She is having a lot of anxiety about not feeling loved no matter how much we tell her she is. She feels I love Dwayne and not her. She says she doesn't love Dwayne and "He's not my dad." has been said over and over again. We sat her down and tried to explain that there is plenty of love to go around and that I love her more than anyone but she is still upset and even has asked Dwayne and I not to kiss more than once a day. I will continue to give her extra time and attention until she feels she is an equal and valued part of our new family as well as loved by both Dwayne and I.

The wedding day was a lot more stressful than I could have imagined. Stress + Jen = Bitch. I do not deal well with stress and always end up taking it out on everyone else, being short, pushy, & angry. Pretty much the sum of what your aren't supposed to act like on your wedding day. My scheduled makeup and hair appointments were much longer than expected making me late meanwhile Dwayne was having to deal with all the kids, decorations, stereo, and parents without my help. Despite everything, I think the wedding turned out beautiful, the weather was perfect and all of the most important people in our lives were able to attend.

The pictures on this link were taken mostly by me or my sister Debbie. The wedding photographer pictures will be posted later. http://www.flickr.com/photos/11478640@N00/